..twilight revisted..

`i am officially addicted to this book & to this series

`unconditionally & irrevocably

Bella loves Edward..she is uncertain of everything else in this world except for that one fact.

Bella always thought of herself as plain, nothing out of the ordinary.

Bella can pick out his face in a crowd, hear his voice in a roar of other conversations and with just a simple look she knew.

Offers and attention from other boys go unthwarted..she has no need for what they have to offer nor any interest for what they have to show.

She can't concentrate when she is without him, all her thoughts trace back to him and she can't concentrate when she is with him, just the sound of his voice the coldness of his touch sends her into a frenzy.

Bella knows yet Edward is unsure.

Edward has a secret, one that he feels is too dangerous to disclose to Bella.

He too finds Bella somewhat irresistable but he knows his limitations and with means to keep Bella safe he decides to ignore her at first.

Attraction sometimes can overcome such fears and Edward gives in..of course only to a certain extent.

Although Edward allows them to see one another he constantly reminds her that he is dangerous, they can never be, he is much too old for her and that there are so many others boys that are much better suited (safer) for her.

Bella is willing to give up everything in this world to be with Edward yet he is still unsure.

To the same measure Bella is the sunshine in Edward's day.

Edward hates the fact that he is the reason Bella is sad.

Bella tries to explain to Edward he completes her, makes her the happiest she has ever been, the only reason she is sad is that she never wants to be without him and the uncertainty of their relationship scares her.

The book ends with the two in an impasse...in which they are still seeing one another, Bella still sure as ever and Edward still unwilling to experience.

`this is my story...my life...my emotions

`what an incredible book..so much excitement..these are just the raw emotions..dont wanna spoil the bok for anyone...next on the list 'New Moon'

..bubbly..

Colbie Cailat
Bubbly

I've been awake for awhile now
You've got me feeling like a child now
Cause everytime i see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place

It starts in my toes and i crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for awhile now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
We are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe & warm
You give me feelings that i adore

It starts in my toes and i crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes i always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for awhile
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am i gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just .......... mmmmmmmmm

I've been asleep for awhile now
You tuck me in just like a child now
Cause everytime you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth
It starts in my soul and i lose all control
When you kiss my nose the feelings show
You make me smile baby
Just take your time now holding me tight
Wherever, wherever wherever u go

..i won..

LOL! i won something from the radio yesterday! Notice i say something because i don't actually know what i won. I wasn't paying too much attention i was just so excited that i knew the answer so i called in. They play a game everyday in which the dj gives out 3 dirty clues for a regular item. The first clue was the more you use me the smaller i get. The second clue was everyone wants my big box. He didn't even get to the 3rd clue cause i already knew the answer! Crayons!! I always wanted the big box of crayons! I was so excited when i finally got my first box and then they came out with a plastic carrying case! Whoohoo! anyway i gotta pick up my prize before friday...i guess i'll figure out what i won then! =)

..twilight..

`my current reading material

`thanks *b for the great book suggestion...i was in the need of something to read other than my anatomy text book, which by the way is driving me crazy =p

`don't get me wrong...this is a great book yet i am having a hard time reading it, it makes me sad

`i relate so much to the story...thus far anyway & it frightens me

..Nike 5k..

~Nike 5k Fun Run~
`who wants to wake up at 5:30 and go for a quick run?
`too many peoples... =p


O.o.the girlies.o.O

O.o.Betty..Brandon..Mike.o.O
`we all went to support Brandon's elem
`Go Hokulani Elem!

O.o.the starting team.o.O

O.o.Ready..Set..Go!.o.O

`too many peoples were up too early in the morning for this!
`not too many characters came out..just a bunny & a jamba juice banana

..secret work blogging..

i found a way to get to my blog from a computer @ work! Longs has a reeeeEEaally strict internet policy and the computers are set to block us out of every and any kind of website besides the main Longs sites. Blah! It's really stupid cause sometimes we get blocked out of things that we actually need to use like the HMSA websites and what not...oh wells...such is Longs. Shhh...i found a computer that lets me on! whoohoo! =P Not that i can do much from here anyway since i dont have my picasa and stuff but still...cool beans...i'm allowed on! =)

..allergic!!..

LoL! anyone that knows me, knows that i have terrible allergies to all kinds of things. I went to the doctor today and he confirmed it! I am literally allergic to everything! I got an allergy skin test done today. They scratched me with 50 different allergens to see which i would react too. Drumroll please...i reacted to all except a few types of molds and to my surprise dog hair/dander! Tinkerbell is a keeper!! Not allergic to her and i've got medical proof backing me up! William on the other hand...as i already knew is noooo good for me but he's a keeper too cause i just can't see giving him up. Would rather sneeze & wheeze till no end rather than to give him away. So whats on the allergy list...every type of grass n tree, dust, dust mites, roach anything, melons, chocolate, potatoes, corn, oranges, cherries, cats, horses, cows, wheat, and the list goes on and on and on. Doctor even made me take xrays to see what all my sinus passageways looked like...well...that just as the allergy scratch test didnt go so well. I seem to have the most swollen passageways ever...no wonder i can never breathe. =P I got a crapload of medicine prescribed..felt like a druggie picking it all up...and i dont know if i'm gonna take um all but we'll see.

..jump!..

~my new fave way to capture a moment~

`thanks *y for taking the pic...i grant u the title of MASTER @ jumping pics

..hopes n dreams..

`when life offers u a dream so far beyond any of your expectations,

it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end

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`even though i might not always be a part of your life

you will always be a big part of mine

i have all of our memories & i never forget

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~a friend told me just the other night..when none of your friends have ever met your other half, the one you supposedly love and already hate him & think lowly of him..you aren't happy. Each one of my friends have never met my secret...yet they love him, love him for everything he is to me. They all wanna meet him, meet this incredible person who puts a smile on my face with just the simple thought of him. Guess what? I wanna meet him too...i wanna be let into his complex world...i honestly believe he completes me.

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`i'm tired of being aggressive (its obviously not working)...i'll always know how he makes me feel...now it's time to wait till he feels the same...till then...i miss him..

..happy bday koby..

~Koby turns five!~

O.o.Happy happy birthday!!.o.O
O.o.little bois r growing up so fast!.o.O

O.o.birthday boy with his BeardPapa.o.O

..happy bday Shauna..

~SURPRISE!~
`Shauna's surprise bday party was so hard to keep a secret
`everything went as planned...and she was very surprised!
`a lotta hard work but it all worked out so yay! =)



o-O-happy birthday Shauna!-O-o

O-o-even the old ladies of Moi came out to celebrate!-o-O

O-o-we miss these little ones!-o-O

..cutest baby boi..

~introducing Kyden.. =)

`Kyden n i

`mama Stacie n Kyden

-i miss my Stacie!!
the last time we met up Kyden was still living in Stacie's tummy
& now look what a big boi he is!

..the boys r back!!..

~The Backstreet Boys~

Inconsolable

i close the door
like so many times so many times before
filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
gonna let u walk away tonight without a word
i tried to sleep
but the clock is stuck on thoughts of u n me
a thousand more regrets unraveling
if u were here right now i swear i'd tell u this

I dont wanna waste another day
keeping it inside, its killing me
cause all i ever wanted comes right down to u
i wish that i could find the words to say
baby i would tell u everytime u leave
im inconsolable

i climb the walls
i can see the edge but i can't take the fall
i memorized the numbers
so why can't i make the call
maybe cause i know you'll always be with me
in the possibility

i dont wanna be like this
i just wanna let u know
everything i hold in
is everything i can't let go

..this past weekend..

~i actually went out!

~i have been missing from the scene...
but maybe its time for a comeback =)

..a.d.d..

as u can tell i have a serious disorder..i can't seem to pay attention to one thing long enough. i get bored easily and tend to move on to the next thing without a second thought nor look back. i got an email today that said..."hey! i check ur blog everyday & i get nothing new..how about an update?" so here it is...know that i love u dearly and that i am sacrificing watching my SECRET "guilty pleasure" to update this thing.

Since the last time i posted anything, nothing much has really changed. Actually set a deadline for a project i had in mind & finished it with ample time! =) granny was very proud! My Aaron came home for a week! Went to the Gwen Stefani concert..& fell down..lol! Still been going out but not as much and might i add STILL chasing the same boi. Got a new job..had a change in career plans..started running around the valley daily..but still just want what i want.

September is a busy birthday month..the people i hold dearest & nearest to my heart all seem to be born this month. So know...if u're bday is this month..big chances i love u to pieces...well most of u anyway. =p