..ANTM..

~~**~~America's Next Top Model~~**~~

yep, i am a reality tv show watcher. i happen to loooove a few of them too, america's next top model being one of them. I love to watch the show in the beginning and choose my winner. The show is so much more interesting when you have someone in mind that you think should win. Some seasons, no one "wows" me, other seasons like this one there are a few. I love seeing the different photo shoot scenarios they photograph them in and the fashion! The clothes they get to model...amazing! This is my hopeful winner, Clark. She is stunning to me...she started the show with blonde hair and Tyra gave her the dark hair...which solidified my decision.

O.o.cLark modeling a swimsuit by Susan Holmes.o.O

`ugh...if i could somehow get my 5foot asian body to resemble that! =P

"Fierce Eyes"
O.o.Photograph by Nigel Barker.o.O
`this photo amazes me..the colors and the intensity..

..meet the new fishies..

~**~i FouNd NeW fisHies!~**~

O.o.meet Wockhardt!.o.O

~wocky for short..~

~this lil guy is shy..swims slowly and ever so gracefully~

O.o.meet Mr Fishy!.o.O

~this lil guy has a.d.h.d. (if u cant tell from the pics)

a social lil one..he stares at you and i think he likes your attention..

..twelve years!..

~*~Mes meilleures amies~*~

it was just recently my girlie Kristen's birthday...Happy birthday btw...but it got me thinking about how old we are all getting. *sigh* Kris is the last of us to have a birthday in the year, it used to be a crappy thing...we could all go to the club before her, we could all start legally drinking before her but now that there are not so much "fun" milestones ahead of us i think her late birthday works in her favor!~

anyway..as i was thinking about our ages, i started thinking about when i first met these girlies. These girls have been with me for 12 years now! whew! thats a long time! do you know how many boys we went through in those years?!

well....maybe not me, but...ahaha!!

just wanted to tell em that i love em dearly and heres to mannnnny more!

twelve years is exactly half of our lives...the ratio only goes up from here..i'm lucky to have u guys!

..poor fishy..

i woke up on Saturday morning to find that Actavis died. ='( my poor fishy. He used to flare up at me everytime i came home...prolly cause he was hungry and not because he missed me..but i still enjoyed seeing him ruffle his fins everytime i walked into my room. i'm thinking about getting a new fish...i already have a name... =P the search begins...to find a fish worthy of the name! LoL...

..not a good habit..

today i realized the importance of studying outside of my own home. when i study at home this is my pattern, study for one hour and then take a two hour nap. wake up, play with my dog or something equally as random, study for an hour and then take another nap. wake up, check my email or update my blog, and now back to studying...who wants to guess whats in store for me in about an hour?! a nap?! prolly...see you in my dreams! =P

..i lost..

i lost something that no-one knew i had...i lost someone who meant the world to me...i lost the battle i have been fighting for so long now. i'm not entirely okay with it yet but i will be. life moves on and i continue to exist. they say sometimes you don't realize what you have until its gone...sometimes you do realize what you have and its not until they want somebody else that you realize they never will be yours again. i wish i could be mad, i wish i could be filled with hate, those types of feelings might make this easier to deal with. instead i sit with happy memories, content and somewhat fulfilled. i'm not the type of person to give up on what she wants, some call me spoiled, i call myself determined. as i have learned, determination will not always get you what you desire, especially when it comes to matters of the heart.

People always say that things happen for a reason.

i belive them.

i know i was meant to meet him, i know i was meant to have him in my life, i know that he was meant to teach me all that he did.

i hope this new girl treats him well, i hope this new girl wakes up every morning and appreciates him, i hope this new girl is everything he imagined that i couldn't be.

..if u wanna..

O.o.i can be your addiction

if you wanna get hooked on me.o.O

..lab rocks..

~*~the FuTuRe of MicRobioLogy~*~


i used to dread four to five hour labs...these people make lab fuuun! especially since jas and i are NOT allowed to do anything =P
TEAM ciNdy RoCkS!

and on another note...y do i look so little in this pic? is everyone really that much taller than i am? LoL..